truce over.

I don't really know why I ended it. It's been crossing my mind for days but I just couldn't bring myself to it. I don't want to lose him, but we aren't going anywhere, hes decided hes going to college like an hour n half away. So what am I supposed to do? Let him string me along till the day he moves away for 'a year'. Then he goes off and fucks everyone anyways so why try n stop it He never wanted to go to college till after we broke up and his friends got to him. He's becoming more and more like them and it disgusts me. When we first started hanging out I loved him because he was different from them. He wasn't full of himself and trying to be funny and act like a douchebag. Now thats all he does. He says rude, mean ass things and thinks hes just the shit. He said his friend was buying him a hounddog so they could go bobcat hunting. I told him he was an idiot because hes leaving in 6 months anyways and his mom and sister would end up taking care of it just like everyone else's animals in the family. You know what he said? Fuck it right. They don't do shit anyways, they need something to do. It's not gunna kill them to take of a dog for a year and I took care of their animals for like 10 years when I was a kid and I know it prolly won't workout but I'll just give to someone else who cat hunts.'  I was like if you know its not going to work out then why let a dog get attached to you just to ditch it? He's like Carolynn I will love and take perfect care of my dog. I'll find a way to make it work. Trust me. Funny how you can be jealous of a dog haha and how he can have so much dedication to a dog he has never even laid eyes on, and yet not an ounce for the girl he was 'in love with' for over a year n a half. Not shit for me but sweet kisses, empty promises, I love you's & I'm sorrys that mean nothing.
I saw this on facebook this morning...
 
If A Man Wants You
'If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
 Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can’t "be friends."
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think "it will get better." You’ll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
 void men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
Oh Lord!  If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.'

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.  hah. ironic.