Bipolar Decisions.

I can't make up my mind and I feel like a total nut. One minute I'm excited to hangout with him even if its only for sex and the next minute I'm like You cant keep doing this to yourself. If he doesn't care enough to want or even try to hangout and spend time with you, then theres no point in trying and giving him the one thing he wants. Today he said something about my birthday being soon on facebook. I was like Yahh, 20 days. Crazy. and made a remark about the last few minutes before the midnight of my bithday last year how we were taking pictures and how I have these funny one of me trying to lick him. He was like Yahh I think I remember that sicko. Well I can think of a couple things I like you licking haha I was like wtf. You're such a douche. Well, I thought that anyways. I said, cuz thats the only thing you think about period. He was like, Carolynn we have a sex truce I thought I was aloud to think about it.
Oh yeah, and then the last time we hooked up...we were in the car cuz his mom is on her no sex bitchfit and thinks we both should move on.........Were sitting there after and he goes to get in the front seat again and I was just kidding but I was like Ohh I see how it is..fuck me n take me home. He was like We have a fuck truce, not a hangout truce. And he laughed like he was kidding, but seriously only a piece of shit says that.

I don't know what to do. I don't want him to be with other girls so I'm being the piece of ass, but at the same time if we're not gunna get back together then whats the point.. It's gunna happen eventually if thats the case. But I don't want to bring it up either because I don't want him to be with me only because he feels bad or  to feel smothered and make it even further out of the question. I feel like if he doesn't even want to hangout with me, then why would he want to date me. I don't get why the fuck he says the shit he does yet makes no effort. If you don't feel that way then dont say you do.